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foxy-kitsune · 1 month ago

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i am so fucking proud of you my 7dream💚

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flowerakatsuka · 7 months ago

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indirect compliment

#for anyone wondering how bad kuro's crush on kara was back in high school this was the shit they were doing #they're so fucking goofy back then it makes me want to cry—#i have another comic idea about kuroba watching the play kara was in... it's so silly...... 😭#don't even get be started on the what if scenario of if they actually got to know each other in hs #( actually please do i'd love to talk about it )#also say hi to kuroba's hs bully her name's shin #very much considering developing her into an actual character instead of just a bully she's been on my mind #i have some ideas for her so we'll see #okay it's bedtime #osomatsu-san #osmt #osomatsu-san oc #yumematsu #18matsu #mj ocs #oc : kuroba #oc : shin #ship : kurokara #mj draws

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dazais-guardian-angel · 20 days ago

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Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3

#bungou stray dogs #bsd spoilers #bsd 120.5 #please laugh i know i made myself laugh.... if only to keep from crying lol #the oocification of Fukuzawa will be studied in the history books for years to come #that's not my fukuzawa...... that's his discount twin fucksack #because his dick is so far up the ass of his dead pathetic dumbass crusty ex boyfriend it's not even funny #he is dickriding that fucker HARD #and here i thought the FANDOM woobified fukuchi out the wazoo. but oh my god no fukuzawa himself has them all beat this chapter #man is coco for cocopuffs and babying that grown-ass man like he's 5 #it's truly pathetic and depressing to see i'm just beyond words #'you deceived him by keeping quiet the issues that would plague a union of mankind' NO??? LITERALLY ANYONE WITH A BRAIN WOULD KNOW #THAT THAT WOULD NEVER FUCKING WORK???? THAT IT'S THE STUPIDEST MOST NAIVE PLAN AND VIEW OF THE WORLD IMAGINABLE????#WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS A TODDLER INSTEAD OF A GROWN-ASS SOLDIER WITH YEARS OF MILITARY EXPERIENCE #Fyodor feels like the only one at this point that hasn't truly lost the plot in all this...... the only one with a goddamn brain #I HATE THAT I HAVE TO AGREE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT IT FELT SO CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!#and i hate even more that the series clearly doesn't want us to agree with him and instead believe that fukuzawa is still right #even though he was spouting the most naive braindead bullshit imaginable that early series Fukuzawa would NEVER SAY #WHAT ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN BRO??? WHY DO YOU CARE MORE ABOUT DEFENDING THE HONOR OF THAT CRUSTY MF THAN #THE SAFETY OF YOUR KIDS????#WHERE DID ALL YOUR INTELLIGENCE GO #i fucking hated the writing ever since fukuchi's plan/motives were first revealed and it was played completely straight (and gay lol)#but to hear fukuzawa actually come out and defend that ridiculous bs is just.......... again i have no words #it's insane. what happened. what happened to you fukuzawa. all i can do is laugh it's so sad it's so stupid. I WAS CRINGING SO BAD.#and was so glad when he finally died so he finally SHUT THE FUCK UP. i hate it here. i miss when BSD was good so bad man 😭😭😭#it would be one thing if it felt like he's so deep in grief that he's completely deluded himself that fukuchi was right and had pure motive #and wasn't an idiotic piece of shit himself just like fyodor #but nah again it just feels like we're supposed to side with him lmao even though fyodor was exactly right in everything he said #when your villain sounds more intelligent/correct than your hero and that's not an intentional writing choice..... that's not good bros!!!#anyway may your stupidity be purified in the soul of your dead bf fukuzawa 🙏 and we get the true you back

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choccorin · 3 months ago

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GUYYYYYYSSSSSSSSUEBDUEIDVWJXBWJDJBEJD !!!!1!! 1!1!1!!!!1!1!!1!1!1!!!1!1!1!11!!1!!!111!!

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gingergari · 26 days ago

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baby’s first fakemon 🎉

Brairn

Type: Grass/Rock

Height: 8’0” 2.4 m Weight 247.0 lbs 112.0 kg

Ability: Wayfinder, Sturdy (Hidden)

Wayfinder is the Brairn evolution family’s signature ability. This Pokémon’s moves will always hit, but it will always move last.

Pokédex Entry 1: Brairn prefer to remain stationary if possible. Hikers can reliably use them as cairns.

Pokédex Entry 2: It is believed that Brairn originated from the emotions and spirit of hikers on trails.

Origins: Brairn appear to be based on mossy cairns.

Etymology: Bryophyta, the taxonomic division of moss + Cairn

Brairn evolve into ??? at level 31.

#gari draws #nintendo #pokemon #fakemon #brairn #this fakemon was born from my frustration at pokedoku that there’s literally three grass/rock pokemon and none of them are moss rocks #like dude do you know how many times they play that category i already got dex for the three (3) pokemon give it a rest 😭#thought a little bit about theming and remembered how people make psas about rock stacking bc the tourist ones can get people lost #if they think they’re cairns and so we got this guy #the number one thing preventing me from posting them months ago was the fact that i didn’t have an ability #and then i had real like stuff once i actually figured one out which was funny bc this was 90% done too #graphic design is not my passion #the aligning shit pissed me off so bad #i think i lowballed the weight but it came to me in a dream (random number in my head)#their cry sounds like you’re shaking pebbles probably #i already designed the evo the same time as this but i just dont have dex entries #also i need to draw them officially they were designed in apple notes ✨#then after that i want to design a ground/fairy fakemon #i was really into fairies as a kid but unfortunately that just manifested in reading fictional book series and writing group fiction #on message boards about it #so i need to look up mythology for inspiration

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spaghett-onaplate · 7 months ago

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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rose-tinted-kalopsia · 21 days ago

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STOP YOU GUYS 😭 my heart broke into tiny little PIECES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 MY LUKE AND KIERAN :((((((((

im sniffling...................... this sentence..............

#lnds spoilers #i want to yap so bad #i love them to death 😭😭😭😭😭#like oh my god they deserve the WORLD #😭😭😭😭😭 IM ACTUALLY CRYING #ʚɞ*.ﾟ. lnds #*ੈ♡. rose talks #(this user is a luke and kieran truther)

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seventh-district · 27 days ago

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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos

#normal Saturday morning behavior #redacted spoilers #redacted audio #redacted sam #Seven.txt #rp audio stuff #well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold #and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet #eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info #bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts #which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn #like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared #anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort #and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way #but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time #when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm #i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me #then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad #but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d #hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share #but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope #which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually #anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time #Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something #*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow

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beatlesmenrock · 7 months ago

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me watching yellow submarine

#i really enjoyed it actually #why was everyone so mean to Jeremy im crying they hated his ass 😭😭😭#the beatles think everything a fucking game like 😭😭😭 i know that’s the point but someone has to put them on leashes they fr dont LISTSN #is it bad to say i wanted George in this movie #ANYWAYS…#yellow submarine #the beatles #beatles

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running-in-the-dark · 1 month ago

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I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.

idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!

#literally like. everything is kinda fucked up and everything hurts a lot of the time and everything just feels wrong in my stupid body #but not being able to sleep and also being tired all of the time and sleeping so much is so so so shitty #like I can't fall asleep when I want to and I can't stay awake when I need to #it fucking sucks #also my so called sleep schedule ALWAYS goes back to sleeping at like 5 or 6 am no matter how much I try to go to bed earlier #it never ever lasts #also it's really funny (haha sooooo hilarious) when people talk about sleep hygiene. as if it actually does/changes anything?? apparently it #does for normal people??#literally nothing ever helps (at least not more than a few random unpredictable times)#also. the toddler upstairs has been crying every morning starting around 5am. for an hour.#which is juuust perfect for helping me sleep. 😭😭😭 but anyway I've got Thursday Murder Club to listen to. and also my husband snoring in #his room next to mine lol. this feels like some kind of really mean joke 🙃#ALSO also. I have to get up in 3 hours for the appointment........ every damn time I'm like oof this is bad I need to get a later #appointment next time! and then I immediately forget.#personal

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dandyshucks · 7 months ago

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been coping with [gestures vaguely at family] by writing a little thing in my notes app of Guz and I having an exhaustion-fueled and stress-fueled argument and how we would handle that because good golly it is definitely better than how this family handles it lmao at the very least it would not be Constant Griping :')))

#get me OUTTA HEREEE #we might be gone an extra day now bc of some stuff happening and im just like... wanting to cry a little bit bc of it fjdkdl #my god these ppl sure can gripe though. its genuinely like. at least 60% of the talking is just complaining or arguing #i have been staying quiet as much as i can without being too quiet bc then i get accused of ''pouting'' or being ''owly''#im just trying to keep my mouth shut so yall dont get snippy at me 😭😭#i am exhausted tbqh dhfkfl we have... four or five more days left depending on if we take that extra day away #gritting my teeth and pushing through this !!!! with the love of blorbo giving me strength LMAO #it's kind of comforting though to write about arguments with Guz bc we would be able to talk it out afterwards #and figure out better ways of handling things and be proactive and also ACTUALLY APOLOGIZE GOODNESS GRACIOUS PLEASEEEE #okay theres my vent. its been bad DJFJDKL but I don't wanna come on here and dump my shit out everywhere and then disappear LOL #there have been pockets of good though so fjfkdl i take what i can get !! enjoying what i can !!#vent //#dandy.cmd

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fallowtail · 3 months ago

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knowing you will never get better and are actively and visibly getting worse and rapidly declining and are basically just a husk to consume the joy of others is so fun actually i highly recommend it

#haven’t even been able to discuss even just fandom bullshit with people in about 5 months that isn’t me supporting their #ideas or rehashing what they say back at them lol i want to cry so bad there genuinely is nothing left for me #like everyone still gets up my ass about therapy but what will talking to someone who doesn’t actually give a shit or understand about #this do other than gaslight me into being okay with it. i dont want to be fucking okay with it because it is killing me #like living a life where you have nothing left isn’t worth it imo just to make other people feel better. insane behaviour expecting me to #just move along actually #“you still have value even if you have no skills or provide anything :)” like okay thanks but that is literally not the fucking issue here😭#z

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crossbackpoke-check · 5 months ago

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about to be sooo nosy so. my apologies. but. morgan frost? girlfriend? do share (or don’t! again this is so nosy i’m sorry)

for legal purposes i can neither confirm nor deny anything about morgan and his girlfriend but afaik i think he’s single right now? at one point (within the past four years 😭) he did for sure have a girlfriend and that is the extent of my wag knowledge

#anon PLEASE i am the nosiest person in the world i understand i want to know everything. ever. however #because i have no evidence and don’t want to spread unfounded rumors i will state for the jury i am not a gossip blog #& anything i say should be taken with a grain of salt. or a vsco deep dive & also maybe a dig into the flyers media archives. wrt UNfounded #but i will gossip in your dms because it’s a vital method of communication and important for community building.#also i’m like 95% sure i just osmosed the fact that morgan and his girlfriend broke up sometime earlier in the hockey season from someone #else (probably flyerskay) and accepted it at face value like absolutely i’d trust kay with my life. she would never lie to me and therefore #i can’t be lying to you. i can’t remember morgan’s gf’s name tho but i can like. vividly remember her artsy possessive vsco photos 😭 help #that man posts more about tom petty than he does anyone else in his life besides joel so really how would we know if hes posted her less #the answer is we wouldn’t and i want to say her name is katie SO bad but i know that’s tyson’s gf it’s like. victoria or stacie or somethin #& i want to see if SHE deleted all her vsco pictures of him bc that’s how we’d know they broke up. frosty stop following so many girls #i want to try and find her and see (she’s a model and she was public and had her vsco linked so all of this is public info btw.)#ANON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA OANDJRIWNDHOWHDB IT IS 1:38 AM AND I HAVE JUST MANAGED. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD ANON HOLD ON #BUCKLE YOURSELF THE FUCK IN FOR AN ANSWER YOU DID NOT ASK FOR BECAUSE THIS IS A R I D E AND I NEED TO YELL ABOUT IT I CAN’T MY GOD I CANNOT #B R E A T H E i’m about to start crying again but the backstory is that. i have had a fic that i have been working on for literal years.#my version history says March 15 2021 and it started in my notes app about 3000 words before that and it’s based off of a tweet i thought #calla had quoted and just said ‘Joel’ about but in my notes i never #saved the actual tweet and many times throughout the years i have gone back and advanced searched every version of joel and joelle and bee #and behavior on calla’s blog that i could possibly think of and just assumed like. it must’ve gotten deleted or the account suspended and i #could never remember the wording well enough to just google it but believe me i tried and put in every variation. never found it in 4 years #i try periodically. fast forward to about twenty minutes ago i am looking through kay’s twitter and searching vsco because i SWEAR she has #the picture of frosty’s gf’s fingernail marks in the back of frosty’s shoulders i am talking about / I can’t find her vsco linked anywhere #but i’m like ok. search up a couple other things and think about who might have it and on a WHIM look up vsco in ash notthequiettype’s acct #no results okay whatever i think about what else could maybe pull it up for me so I have SOMETHING for you. I search frosty. I scroll. GUES #WHAT I FUCKING FIND FROM NOVEMBER 13TH 2020 it is THE FANTASTIC TWEET THAT SPAWNED 16K OF NOTES & FIC & A SPREADSHEET OF JOEL’S CLASSES #AND I NEVER WOULD’VE FOUND IT AGAIN IF NOT FOR THIS!!! LOSING IT!!! by it I mean my mind and my sleep schedule!!! it’s 2AM now good night!!#liv in the replies #morgan frost #philadephia flyers

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aberooski · 6 months ago

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The way I have such a ridiculously hard time trying to draw when I'm not just drawing GX characters into scenes that already exist visually really makes me feel so unbelievably shitty I just want to be able to put things I picture in my head to the page without it looking like complete shit 9.5/10 times 😭

#this is why my art tag is abby attempts to draw #because every piece is an honest to god attempt #why fo you think I do so many gx redraws of things? fatal frame art taylor's album covers the ocasional final fantasy moment #I literally started another ff cutscene piece tonight because I wanted to draw 😭#because I literally cannot fucking draw 97% of the time #all my like actually original pieces are probably the things I'm the most proud of in my life because they feel like a miracle #like I did that. I made that. I saw that in my head and successfully put it to page with little to no help from reference images and shit #I've been trying to get myself to try to draw more lately because the only way to get better is to practice right? well I every time #I've just sat there staring at the blank page and givibg myself a headache or wanting to cry because anything I get down #looks like complete ass and I don't wanna even try to fix it because I feel so bad even though I KNOW everythinf I draw #is a trust the process moment but ugh it's so frustrating I just wanna be good at it like the rest of you lovelies 😭#I'm literally so jealous of everyone who can draw I wish I coukd do that 😔#abby's insomnia thoughts

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netherdevil · 6 months ago

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so i have 9 hours so far on ZZZ

i downloaded it JUST TODAY. AT 1PM. thats not normal