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foxy-kitsune · 3 days ago

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i am so fucking proud of you my 7dream💚

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flowerakatsuka · 5 months ago

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indirect compliment

#for anyone wondering how bad kuro's crush on kara was back in high school this was the shit they were doing #they're so fucking goofy back then it makes me want to cry—#i have another comic idea about kuroba watching the play kara was in... it's so silly...... 😭#don't even get be started on the what if scenario of if they actually got to know each other in hs #( actually please do i'd love to talk about it )#also say hi to kuroba's hs bully her name's shin #very much considering developing her into an actual character instead of just a bully she's been on my mind #i have some ideas for her so we'll see #okay it's bedtime #osomatsu-san #osmt #osomatsu-san oc #yumematsu #18matsu #mj ocs #oc : kuroba #oc : shin #ship : kurokara #mj draws

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choccorin · 1 month ago

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GUYYYYYYSSSSSSSSUEBDUEIDVWJXBWJDJBEJD !!!!1!! 1!1!1!!!!1!1!!1!1!1!!!1!1!1!11!!1!!!111!!

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nolan-chance · 8 months ago

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Commissioned @woofyway this sweet sweet DiamondChance 🥹💕 Every time I look at it makes me smile like dumb ✨

#fortnite #montague #nolan chance #fortnite shipping #Sorry I just realized I neve actually posted this I was so excited and I forgot (?#Idk if I should tag them but please let me know if you want the tag removed 🥹#Nolan posting #Really it makes me go aaaaaaaaaaaa #It's beautiful I love it so mucho I can't #I'm crying (? They're so happy #DiamondChance #Sweet sweet DiamondChance #For my soul #I need them so bad(?#They're touching 😭😭😭💕 and Nolan is like 😢 but Monty is like 😀 gdhfgjhkgi I'm dying #They're so happy together. In my mind at least(?)#art for me

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spaghett-onaplate · 5 months ago

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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beatlesmenrock · 5 months ago

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me watching yellow submarine

#i really enjoyed it actually #why was everyone so mean to Jeremy im crying they hated his ass 😭😭😭#the beatles think everything a fucking game like 😭😭😭 i know that’s the point but someone has to put them on leashes they fr dont LISTSN #is it bad to say i wanted George in this movie #ANYWAYS…#yellow submarine #the beatles #beatles

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running-in-the-dark · 4 days ago

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I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.

idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!

#literally like. everything is kinda fucked up and everything hurts a lot of the time and everything just feels wrong in my stupid body #but not being able to sleep and also being tired all of the time and sleeping so much is so so so shitty #like I can't fall asleep when I want to and I can't stay awake when I need to #it fucking sucks #also my so called sleep schedule ALWAYS goes back to sleeping at like 5 or 6 am no matter how much I try to go to bed earlier #it never ever lasts #also it's really funny (haha sooooo hilarious) when people talk about sleep hygiene. as if it actually does/changes anything?? apparently it #does for normal people??#literally nothing ever helps (at least not more than a few random unpredictable times)#also. the toddler upstairs has been crying every morning starting around 5am. for an hour.#which is juuust perfect for helping me sleep. 😭😭😭 but anyway I've got Thursday Murder Club to listen to. and also my husband snoring in #his room next to mine lol. this feels like some kind of really mean joke 🙃#ALSO also. I have to get up in 3 hours for the appointment........ every damn time I'm like oof this is bad I need to get a later #appointment next time! and then I immediately forget.#personal

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dandyshucks · 6 months ago

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been coping with [gestures vaguely at family] by writing a little thing in my notes app of Guz and I having an exhaustion-fueled and stress-fueled argument and how we would handle that because good golly it is definitely better than how this family handles it lmao at the very least it would not be Constant Griping :')))

#get me OUTTA HEREEE #we might be gone an extra day now bc of some stuff happening and im just like... wanting to cry a little bit bc of it fjdkdl #my god these ppl sure can gripe though. its genuinely like. at least 60% of the talking is just complaining or arguing #i have been staying quiet as much as i can without being too quiet bc then i get accused of ''pouting'' or being ''owly''#im just trying to keep my mouth shut so yall dont get snippy at me 😭😭#i am exhausted tbqh dhfkfl we have... four or five more days left depending on if we take that extra day away #gritting my teeth and pushing through this !!!! with the love of blorbo giving me strength LMAO #it's kind of comforting though to write about arguments with Guz bc we would be able to talk it out afterwards #and figure out better ways of handling things and be proactive and also ACTUALLY APOLOGIZE GOODNESS GRACIOUS PLEASEEEE #okay theres my vent. its been bad DJFJDKL but I don't wanna come on here and dump my shit out everywhere and then disappear LOL #there have been pockets of good though so fjfkdl i take what i can get !! enjoying what i can !!#vent //#dandy.cmd

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fallowtail · 1 month ago

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knowing you will never get better and are actively and visibly getting worse and rapidly declining and are basically just a husk to consume the joy of others is so fun actually i highly recommend it

#haven’t even been able to discuss even just fandom bullshit with people in about 5 months that isn’t me supporting their #ideas or rehashing what they say back at them lol i want to cry so bad there genuinely is nothing left for me #like everyone still gets up my ass about therapy but what will talking to someone who doesn’t actually give a shit or understand about #this do other than gaslight me into being okay with it. i dont want to be fucking okay with it because it is killing me #like living a life where you have nothing left isn’t worth it imo just to make other people feel better. insane behaviour expecting me to #just move along actually #“you still have value even if you have no skills or provide anything :)” like okay thanks but that is literally not the fucking issue here😭#z

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frecklystars · 3 months ago

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saw a photo of K so precious i started openly crying immediately and every time i go back and look at it i get teary and sniffly. what's that all about huh

#i think im just depressed but hey thank god im not totally numb like i was three weeks ago holy shit #😭 i think K might take driver's place as my second main F/O... i am always feeling So Much for him...#Driver and K can share second place actually. i don't have the heart to bump driver down to third.#(ken is number one. of course)#now if youll excuse me im going to stare at this image and cry over it bc i miss him so fucking bad #when i feel love for him it is so gentle and secure and like he's physically holding my heart in his hands #being very firm but careful with it ;~;#even when i feel scared of him on my bad days i still think he'd be extremely understanding #i want him to hold my star form in his lap while he sips his coffee and listens to music while watching the rain outside

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crossbackpoke-check · 3 months ago

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about to be sooo nosy so. my apologies. but. morgan frost? girlfriend? do share (or don’t! again this is so nosy i’m sorry)

for legal purposes i can neither confirm nor deny anything about morgan and his girlfriend but afaik i think he’s single right now? at one point (within the past four years 😭) he did for sure have a girlfriend and that is the extent of my wag knowledge

#anon PLEASE i am the nosiest person in the world i understand i want to know everything. ever. however #because i have no evidence and don’t want to spread unfounded rumors i will state for the jury i am not a gossip blog #& anything i say should be taken with a grain of salt. or a vsco deep dive & also maybe a dig into the flyers media archives. wrt UNfounded #but i will gossip in your dms because it’s a vital method of communication and important for community building.#also i’m like 95% sure i just osmosed the fact that morgan and his girlfriend broke up sometime earlier in the hockey season from someone #else (probably flyerskay) and accepted it at face value like absolutely i’d trust kay with my life. she would never lie to me and therefore #i can’t be lying to you. i can’t remember morgan’s gf’s name tho but i can like. vividly remember her artsy possessive vsco photos 😭 help #that man posts more about tom petty than he does anyone else in his life besides joel so really how would we know if hes posted her less #the answer is we wouldn’t and i want to say her name is katie SO bad but i know that’s tyson’s gf it’s like. victoria or stacie or somethin #& i want to see if SHE deleted all her vsco pictures of him bc that’s how we’d know they broke up. frosty stop following so many girls #i want to try and find her and see (she’s a model and she was public and had her vsco linked so all of this is public info btw.)#ANON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA OANDJRIWNDHOWHDB IT IS 1:38 AM AND I HAVE JUST MANAGED. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD ANON HOLD ON #BUCKLE YOURSELF THE FUCK IN FOR AN ANSWER YOU DID NOT ASK FOR BECAUSE THIS IS A R I D E AND I NEED TO YELL ABOUT IT I CAN’T MY GOD I CANNOT #B R E A T H E i’m about to start crying again but the backstory is that. i have had a fic that i have been working on for literal years.#my version history says March 15 2021 and it started in my notes app about 3000 words before that and it’s based off of a tweet i thought #calla had quoted and just said ‘Joel’ about but in my notes i never #saved the actual tweet and many times throughout the years i have gone back and advanced searched every version of joel and joelle and bee #and behavior on calla’s blog that i could possibly think of and just assumed like. it must’ve gotten deleted or the account suspended and i #could never remember the wording well enough to just google it but believe me i tried and put in every variation. never found it in 4 years #i try periodically. fast forward to about twenty minutes ago i am looking through kay’s twitter and searching vsco because i SWEAR she has #the picture of frosty’s gf’s fingernail marks in the back of frosty’s shoulders i am talking about / I can’t find her vsco linked anywhere #but i’m like ok. search up a couple other things and think about who might have it and on a WHIM look up vsco in ash notthequiettype’s acct #no results okay whatever i think about what else could maybe pull it up for me so I have SOMETHING for you. I search frosty. I scroll. GUES #WHAT I FUCKING FIND FROM NOVEMBER 13TH 2020 it is THE FANTASTIC TWEET THAT SPAWNED 16K OF NOTES & FIC & A SPREADSHEET OF JOEL’S CLASSES #AND I NEVER WOULD’VE FOUND IT AGAIN IF NOT FOR THIS!!! LOSING IT!!! by it I mean my mind and my sleep schedule!!! it’s 2AM now good night!!#liv in the replies #morgan frost #philadephia flyers

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lesbiansanemi · 6 months ago

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Bad day. Horrible awful terrible bad day

#there’s not even a reason. nothing bad has actually happened #it just FUCKING SUCKS #I want to walk into a lake and never come back #I want to take my brain out of my skull and throw it at a wall and watch it splatter #I know today sucks because I’m so tense and upset that my back HURTS so fucking bad #cuz when this happens I tense up and my back muscles decide to coil around my spine and squeeze like a starving snake #it’s spreading through my shoulders and even to my chest which is a first #I just 😭😭😭 I want to go home except home also sucks cuz roommate #and I know he’ll be out in a few days but that feels like forever #and I’m so tired and I’m so upset and I want to curl up in a ball and cry and hide from the world #but I’m working a 7 day stretch at my job #and I have to transfer the power and internet to my name sometime before Wednesday #and I’m so sick of takeout the idea of eating it makes me want to vomit but I can’t physically bring myself to cook while they’re there #and I just. ugh. UGH #I’m so sick of existing #why does my life only allow me small handfuls of months at a time #where I’m not living in some form of disaster and stressed to all hell and back and just wanting to lay down and die #what did I do so wrong. what have I done to deserve all this shit #in my short terrible miserable fucking life #whatever I’ll just go home and stare at the wall #and then go to bed and come to work and come to work and come to work there’s always going to work #I’m going to fucking scream I hate my brain #why can’t it just regulate itself in a normal way cuz that’s the thing I know I’m being insane and nothing is actually this bad #but man if it doesn’t fucking feel that way #and being aware I’m being batshit really doesn’t make it better actually I think it makes it worse #kaz rambles

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aberooski · 4 months ago

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The way I have such a ridiculously hard time trying to draw when I'm not just drawing GX characters into scenes that already exist visually really makes me feel so unbelievably shitty I just want to be able to put things I picture in my head to the page without it looking like complete shit 9.5/10 times 😭

#this is why my art tag is abby attempts to draw #because every piece is an honest to god attempt #why fo you think I do so many gx redraws of things? fatal frame art taylor's album covers the ocasional final fantasy moment #I literally started another ff cutscene piece tonight because I wanted to draw 😭#because I literally cannot fucking draw 97% of the time #all my like actually original pieces are probably the things I'm the most proud of in my life because they feel like a miracle #like I did that. I made that. I saw that in my head and successfully put it to page with little to no help from reference images and shit #I've been trying to get myself to try to draw more lately because the only way to get better is to practice right? well I every time #I've just sat there staring at the blank page and givibg myself a headache or wanting to cry because anything I get down #looks like complete ass and I don't wanna even try to fix it because I feel so bad even though I KNOW everythinf I draw #is a trust the process moment but ugh it's so frustrating I just wanna be good at it like the rest of you lovelies 😭#I'm literally so jealous of everyone who can draw I wish I coukd do that 😔#abby's insomnia thoughts

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netherdevil · 4 months ago

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so i have 9 hours so far on ZZZ

i downloaded it JUST TODAY. AT 1PM. thats not normal

#this is exactly like how when i first played ngs i immediately got 8 hours on it on the first day #the fixation hits hard #thought 'oh ive been wanting to play this and i also need something to cope rn'#oh boy did i cope #saw my husband for ONE FRAME and went INSANE #I LOVE YOU ANTON. MY HUSBAND. MY GIRLFRIEND. OH HOW I LOVE YOU #I NEED HIM SO BAD (literally i need to pull him in game) GIVE ME HIM NEEEOOOWWWW BEFORE I GET ANGRY!!?? GRRRR!!!!did not #mean to put those question marks #marks of inquiry #bruh this game has sexy ass gameplay. I SAW IT BEFORE BUT IT FEELS SO DIFFERENT WHEN YOU'RE ACTUALLY PLAYING IT #IT'S SO HEAVY AND UGHHDH IT REMINDS ME OF DMC A LITTLE #specifically dmc5 #example: the Epic shots when you kill all the ethereals in an area #another example: anby's skill. that is literally a vergil combo #another thing that reminds me of ngs is how stuffy the game mechanics are #idk what i'm doing 90% of the time. i get an item. oh cool! where the hell did i get this from.#reading the descriptions of each item doesn't help because none of it sinks in 😭 it's like trying to read from 15 feet away #it's kinda like base game?? in the way that it feels like Everything has already happened and it's shoved in your face and you just kinda #have to figure out what to do #only this time i can't emote and pole dance with other people #oh to see anton pole dancing. /j #/hj :^3 #....../srs :'^3 (i cry a tear)#i've been cooking up an s/i since the game was announced but i still have close to nothing. NO IDEA WHAT THEY WOULD LOOK LIKE.#huge ass weapon obviously. low hollow aptitude but they're such a good fighter that it didn't matter #i know my 'haha i've known this game since' shit is annoying but LET ME HAVE THIS!! I WILL FOREVER FLEX BEING A FAN FROM THE START HEHEHEH #anyway. anton. my pookiebear. my shnookums. Fucck yoyAAAAAAA I LOVE

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montanamp3 · 6 months ago

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tatimaxxing (something big just happened to me but i can't talk about it on this blog because ive posted face)

#my friend's in the hospital again so i spent 20 on an uber with my other friend to go see her #but by the time we got there visiting hours were over 😭#so we just had dinner at the park #and i told her about The Big Terrible Thing for the first time #straight through without embellishment! yay! i think at least #because ive retold the story in so many different ways that im not actually sure what happened anymore #she was like super chill about it though!! and was like im really impressed that you actively made an effort to not be [REDACTED]#not really what she said more like Making An Effort to No Longer [Redacted]#redacted as an action not as a noun blah blah you know #and she told me about how shes faced discrimination at our super homogeneously chinese church which i feel REALLY BAD ABOUT BUT I DON'T KNOW #HOW TO EXPRESS IT TO HER OR WHAT TO SAY ABOUT IT 😭😭😭😭 GIRL HELP #im being so useless and chinese about it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i don't know how to talk to people about things that matter #and idk like ok v non-tatimaxxing of me to say but ive been so self centered and going Wahhh these normies will never experience my #Deep Secret Emotions unlockable only by spending too much time on tumblr as a child #on the other hand i feel like once this has gotten out of the way i don't really have an excuse for not connecting with my church friends #yknow. like i don't have to hide this from them any more #they're great people!! and they're going through so much and I need to be there for them but I couldn't even get tothe stupidhospital on tim #not cry typing just ran out of space #anyway I wish I could care more about them I wish I could make genuine connections without having to lie to feel some sort of weird #rush of power over them because I know the truth and they don't when I lie so much I don't even know what the truth is #I've been putting my face on here more lately because I want to be genuine and I want to not hide things #but idk if it'll work I think it might just make me unemployable 😭😭😭#cc diary

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dandyshucks · 10 months ago

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everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭#im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!!#if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

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